What I’m Worth

Tear my heart to shreds
I’m used to it
Go ahead
Life’s not normal without it
Shred my insides to bits
Rip, rip
Your motives are never wrong
In your own head
Who cares about loyalty
Or being kind?
Feel free to destroy me
A million more times
Why do you care if my heart breaks in two?
You don’t
I see what I’m worth to you.

– Written November 13, 2020
as I struggled with rejection by friends and family,
and as I was confronted with the deep scars from my childhood