Rain Rain

Rain, rain
Go away
Don’t look back
Another day
Don’t lose sight
Don’t demean
It’s okay
Just don’t retreat
Let them win
Let them spin
Let it go
Just let it skim
Never to
My God above
Will vindicate

– Written November 7, 2020
As corruption reveals itself in broad daylight

Foolish Girl

Such a fool, foolish girl
To sit around…and for what?
You don’t know
Never have
Never will
Forget about your heart
‘Cause it’s all about his will

Foolish girl
Dreamy-eyed, lovesick girl
He don’t see you, girl
Never has
Never will
You never stood a chance
‘Cause you know he don’t stand still

Foolish girl
Teary-eyed, heartsick girl
You know the end of this story, girl
Unhappily ever after silver and pearls
Perfectly tarnished, harshly pure
Worth less than gold without a cure
But you still sit there, silly little girl
Believin’, daydreamin’, forever unsure
Foolish, foolish girl

-Written August 18, 2011
as I fell for the wrong guy

Behind Closed Doors and Eyes

Today’s poem is dedicated to the recent victims of the terror attacks in France (October 2020).

I had already published this poem to the blog before hearing about the latest attack, but I feel the theme is appropriate — the families of the victims are surely experiencing pain right now, and that’s the heart behind this poem.

I keep my pain in a private place

Behind closed doors and eyes
And if and when I show that face
You still won’t see everything inside

As I lost my heart to him
His brokenness, not mine
The damage entered in within
It wouldn’t stop, and I couldn’t hide

Confine this pain, this hollow ache
With chains and words not mine
For unto him I surely gave
All that I had, which I cannot find

And so this ache
This pain
Continues on
Within that space
I keep it locked up, warm and safe
Behind closed doors and eyes

– Written October 18, 2011

Will I Ask You To Stay

How long will it last
This sad circumstance
Before you decide
I’m not worth a glance?
It’s only a matter of time
Give it weeks, maybe days
Will I ask you to stay?

How long will you last
In this circumstance
Before you renege
And you understand?
Before you decide
I’ve committed a crime?
Weeks, months, or days?
Will I ask you to stay?

How long will we last
Before somebody’s past
Dictates our future
And muddies the path?
Before all this pain
(Oh, I’ll want you to stay)
Consumes me to tears
As I’m feeling this way?

-Written on August 30th 2012
as I saw the writing on the wall

Desperately Near

When I fall You catch me
Please catch me today
Catch me right now
Before I fade away

I’m sorry I wandered
Sorry I waned
Sorry I faltered and
Failed in this way

But You love me always
This much is clear
This much is true
As You kiss all my tears

Stay with me always
Don’t leave me be
Don’t stay away
Come closer to me

β€˜Cause I’m desperately wanting
Desperate to hear
Desperate to have You come
Desperately near

-Written April 29, 2014
in Tambo de Mora, Peru